I recently learned about NaNoWriMo, unfortunately, it was too late for me to begin concepting and actually plan to write a novel in 30 days (#goals, though), so instead, I’ve decided that I’m going to create my own version. This is me, standing (sitting, but you get it) before you, promising that I will write here for the next 30 days.
When this blog started over 6 years ago, that wouldn’t have sounded like such a feat. I was freshly broken and struggling to put the pieces back together; in writing here (and endless support from my family and friends, but that’s another story), I slowly – very slowly – healed and learned that sharing my story could help others.
Let me get real here for a second. I’ve been struggling lately. A lot. And I think the only person who sees even a glimpse of that is Adam. That poor man. I am equally grateful and sorry for him every single day for having to put up with me and my daily struggles. Not only have we both recently started new jobs, we’re also planning a wedding (more about those struggles here) and starting the search for our first home. We’re crazy, we know. Just today, while he’s away on work travel, he called me and listened to me while I cried and told him all of the reasons why I wasn’t up for what the day was handing me. He’s amazing and even that is an understatement.
ANYWAY, as I was saying, I’ve been struggling lately. Struggling to write, to be productive, to be a good friend, fiancé, sister and daughter. Even just looking at all of those words is a little overwhelming to me right now. But I want to get better and I want other people to know that, if they’re struggling too, that it can get better. It’ll be tough but we can do it together.
So, here I am before you, vowing to come back here each day and write. Some days I might share my story because there’s a lot more to share, if you could believe it. Otherwise, I just want to be a reminder to you all to share your story or, if you don’t have one, to be open to listening to others. Maybe you’re the other voice on the line consoling someone or maybe you’re the person thinking you’re screwing it all up. I’ve been there. Hear me when I say you’re not alone.
I’ll see you tomorrow.